Spontaneous Worship

I was listening to @Bethel Sunday service (live replay on YouTube). Typically, I'd skip the worship and go straight to the message but this time I listened, and found myself pulling out my stylus and "painting" - just picking colours randomly and doodling until these emerged.

Randomly, lol.
I have no idea what they may "mean" but I pray there's a secret message encoded in them, for someone. Or maybe even just for myself, that God can express Himself through us in any way He chooses. He can (and will, if we let Him) use us even in ways we're absolutely not qualified to be used.

And it will be beautiful.

Let's talk about Singleness, one more time:

In the beginning, we were made from love. (God is Love & we're made in His image, so that explains that.) And, yes, God wants us to experience His Love directly, but He also puts us in relationships (families, friends & eventually, spouses) to show us real life examples of what His love looks like. So that when the Bible says God is like a Father, or a Lover, we'd have a reference point.

So when we grow up with distorted examples of love from family/friends, it messes up our understanding of Love. But we still need it so we end up trying to use romantic relationships to fill those holes. (Why romantic relationships? Because we get to choose them. We didn't choose our parents or even our first friends, but we can choose Bae.)
And when we don't get those romantic relationships in the way we pictured (no commitment/ heartbreak/ no toasters at all) we're hurt, we feel lonely.

But God is not afraid of our loneliness. We cry and accuse Him of being unfair for leaving us single and it doesn't really shake Him.
- Because He wants us to realise that HE IS Love, & that any love we get outside Him will never satisfy. We'll keep wanting something more…
All other types of love are just expressions of His love; His Love is the foundation: it heals all the wounds of our past & fills us up with more than enough to give generously to others.

Craving romance without accepting God's Love first is like calling a bakery and ordering icing alone. That's upside down: you order a cake, then they add icing to it.
(A lot of people are married but haven't realised that they've been trying to build on icing & not substance, so don't get that twisted, either.)

Romantic love is BEAUTIFUL. It is a physical expression of Jesus as the Lover of our souls. But if Jesus is not already the lover of your soul then the sweetness of the romance will fade and you'll end up saying men are scum 😭😂

If God has given you the gift of singleness, suffer the sufferhead of the season in peace, but learn love. You can still cry at night, you can still want icing; nothing strong in dat. But learn this Love. It will change your actual and entire life.