I promise to take care of myself. To eat well, and healthy. To exercise.
I promise to make the most of every day, to wake up on time, to read for pleasure as well as for work, to work on my writing, to work on my creativity, to work on myself.
I promise to do what I need to do when I need to do it, to realise that procrastination is regression.
I promise to stop being afraid of life.
I promise to stop being afraid of who I know I can be.
I promise to stop being envious, to stop thinking I am not enough in myself to be happy.
I promise to stop stop believing I don't deserve to be happy, or to be blessed, or to be content, or to be the best. Why shouldn't I be the best? I can be the best. I will be the best.
I promise to stop looking for happiness in other people. Why should I be able to find something in other people when I can not find it first in myself?
I promise to stop measuring my achievements. Against other people, against other things, against other times.
I promise to learn what it means to love myself. Then, I think, I will understand love.
I promise to stop punishing myself.
I promise to stop punishing myself by being only a fragment of myself.
I promise to be happy.
I promise to stop being afraid of being afraid. I promise to learn to accept that I will not always be perfectly composed. Sometimes I will want to cry. I promise to accept that it's okay.
There isn't going to be some magical time in the future when life will pause and let you take a break. There will always be pressures, deadlines. So I promise to learn to take a breath whenever the air clears, even for a second.
And to keep going.
I promise to make the most of every day, to wake up on time, to read for pleasure as well as for work, to work on my writing, to work on my creativity, to work on myself.
I promise to do what I need to do when I need to do it, to realise that procrastination is regression.
I promise to stop being afraid of life.
I promise to stop being afraid of who I know I can be.
I promise to stop being envious, to stop thinking I am not enough in myself to be happy.
I promise to stop stop believing I don't deserve to be happy, or to be blessed, or to be content, or to be the best. Why shouldn't I be the best? I can be the best. I will be the best.
I promise to stop looking for happiness in other people. Why should I be able to find something in other people when I can not find it first in myself?
I promise to stop measuring my achievements. Against other people, against other things, against other times.
I promise to learn what it means to love myself. Then, I think, I will understand love.
I promise to stop punishing myself.
I promise to stop punishing myself by being only a fragment of myself.
I promise to be happy.
I promise to stop being afraid of being afraid. I promise to learn to accept that I will not always be perfectly composed. Sometimes I will want to cry. I promise to accept that it's okay.
There isn't going to be some magical time in the future when life will pause and let you take a break. There will always be pressures, deadlines. So I promise to learn to take a breath whenever the air clears, even for a second.
And to keep going.
I need something like this too. Probably also a support group to hold me to the promises.
ReplyDeleteI find that once I slip, I start making compromises that spiral out of control. Like I say I won't exercise until I write, so I sit at my laptop and end up neither writing nor exercising.
The battle is never between good and evil.